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Some thoughts from Josh.. “My Heart is Heavy”

My Heart is Heavy…

I can think of times in my life where I’ve felt really down. Kind of like I’ve got nothing exciting going on, and that Im really just a big nobody, living a daily life of no purpose. Maybe those were the thoughts going on in my head, but none could compare to the feeling in my heart.

Burdened. Broken. Hurt. Heavy.

You know, I sometimes also wonder. How does God let us know we’re not where he wants us?

Let me tell you a short story. One day, I was feeling quite tired, and it was likely a result of staying up late the night before. That morning I had to work, and I REALLY didn’t feel like it. I decided that I would call in sick. My Dad knowing that I wasn’t really sick and that I had been up late the night before expressed his opinion that I shouldn’t call in sick, and I should suck it up and learn to get more rest, as work is part of life. Needless to say, I called in sick, and when my Dad talked to me later about calling in sick ( I work for my Dad’s company part time by the way), I knew he was disappointed, and after all was said and done I felt pretty bummed out.

I felt burdened and like things just weren’t right between my Father and I. I felt heavy inside, and like I didn’t know exactly what it was that was driving me to this feeling Even though things were really fine, and he wasn’t mad at me, just a little disappointed. He never told me directly NOT to call in sick, but made it clear he recommended against it, as it would be dishonest. Though I didn’t commit some unspeakable sin, I had gone against what my Dad knew was best for me, and for my life, and decided to make my own plans, and when I did that, I was left with that heavy feeling..

I think God speaks to us very much in the same way. God can’t really just tap us on the shoulder and be like “Yo buddy! What are you doing?!?” But I think that when we begin to walk out of step with God’s plan, and his purpose, we begin to feel lost, burdened, heavy. God’s spiritual conviction is His way of letting us know we’re going the wrong way and we need to examine some things in our lives that are leading us away from God. Away from the place of freedom and true love.

In these times we really need to take these issues to prayer, and begin to seek direction to get on the RIGHT path. When we begin to walk in step with God’s plan, we show it, from the inside out.

“Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.”

Matt 11:28-30

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